California

for Li

The moment you came close I knew 
there was an ocean inside you 
that I will soon drown in. I could 
forget everything but the sunshine 
in your skin, still warm, still warm
                                    on my tongue. 

No matter what happens, my love,
your body will forever haunt mine – 
all I have to do is breathe,
and I return to you, a land 
where red poppies and I bloom.
And when I kissed you in the rain, 
vulnerable yet alive, the sky 
                                  was no longer a sky, 
and your name 
was no longer a name.

Lately

I have been writing about us,
fervently, constantly, and endlessly, 
so we don’t one day become memories – ashes
of a great fire  that once burned down an entire city 
in my chest. 

Vulnerable

When I came close
and climbed on top of you;
when I pressed myself deeply
into you, our lips, almost touching…

your face held the same expression
of an infant as he saw the lowering
of a milk bottle. Hunger; excitement;
and also fear, as if the hand that held
the bottle would suddenly disappear. 

That was the moment I saw
you, at your most beautiful,
lying beneath me, soft eyes
under the moonlight. A soul
who surrenders himself
to be satiated by another
is so easy and impossible to hurt.

Hey

Remember that night we sat on your doorsteps 
talking after the party. Your hair was longer 
back then; I had wine stains on my sundress. 
You said it felt good to be here, and I 
laid my head on your shoulder. Remember 
we were laughing. Remember we laughed
so hard that even the sky chuckled,
and then the clouds parted,

and love, 
raindrops, and lips 
fell.